Irony

      The heat in class... I can hear the vent going on. Seriously someone should turn it off. Am burning out. I'm trying to pay attention to the teacher but I cant make out what his trying to say. I don't want to walk out of class because I feel as if I've done that a lot for this ( only maybe once or twice). I'm super thirsty; however, I don't want to walk to the vending machine. There is a very high chance that I might slot my money in the red bull vending machine instead of the water machine. Its ironic how I'm born and raise in African, and I cant stand the hot weather. Its true we never have winter in Gambia; however, it does not get crazy humid. Forget the booty shorts and the tinny dresses; I ,honesty, would choose the 30 degrees weather over the 90.

sick, sad and moody

     I’ve been feeling sick this weekend. All I did, especially today, was just sleep. I feel like doing anything. I have tons of homework to complete for tomorrow morning. I my head is hurting so bad; am sure a can of red bull will make me feel better. Am so hungry but I can’t get myself off the bed to get food. I don’t understand my body right now. I feel sad and I cant even say why. I'm just going to go back to sleep. L

last minute

Well today I didn’t think about red bull at all..! Well… at least not until Felecia mention it; “ waa’ happened to ya red bull” she said in her Guinean creole; “every time I see ya’ mann, I see a red bull in ya hand” she added.  I believe am addicted to red bull; however, I know she just said that to start up a conversation. Am guessing she has seen me at work about two or three times. She looks like the type of person who always has a lot to say about other people. Anyway, am hungry now; work was so exhausting; I feet hurt; so am thinking about rice.  Oh lord I have a quiz tomorrow morning! Completely forgot! Hmm, even if I remembered, my lazy ass won’t pick up the book to read. It’s so hard to work on that part of me; I do everything last minute. The bus driver seriously needs to drive a little faster. All I want right now is to get home, eat and sleep.

Energizer

     I think I’ve figured out why I love red bull. I’ve been thinking about it a lot today because I had another long exhausting day. I feel it’s partly because am lazy. It serves as an energizer for me to do things I really don’t want to do. Or should I say, I feel lazy to do. I honestly can’t wait for Thursday next week; well, not because of the red bull though. I need my coffee and rice. I’ve not being making any home cooked meals; that is helping me not think about it. I feel like I gain a lot of pounds this past week. How ironic! Am having way lesser carbs in my meals; no red bull and, of course, the extra creamy coffee. I need to go to sleepy!

2 for 5

How I love the two for five sale! Too bad I could not get it. Lemonade didn't help with the cravings...       But I did make it through the day almost alright; Being feeling cranky all through. Just got home from work. I can't think straight; struggling to complete my homework for tomorrow morning's class!  I can't emphasize on how "tired" I feel.

Need or Want

     Am tired! I was up late last night; I have a speech due in a few minutes; I honestly could use red bull or coffee (not decaffeinated coffee). I don’t know how I can do this. It’s going to be hard to stand in front of the class. Am not even prepared; I don’t know what am going to say. What if I stutter what I have going to say? I need something to calm my nerves. Water is not helping. There is a red bull vending machine down the hall. I picture myself walking to it; I can feel my fingers digging into my purse for coins to slot into the machine. I can hear the “tish…” sound of the can as I opened it. The relaxing cool feel as it goes down my throat. Right now I'll say I need, not want, a bull! I can honestly use one; but I should learn to control my desire’s right?

The Substitute

   I completely forgot about saying I’m giving up rice. I was having some for lunch when I realized I was not supposed to have any. I didn’t continue eating it though! I don’t believe there is something I can’t live without, but am used to eating rice. It don’t actually disturb me if I didn’t have it but_ well… I found a substitute though; couscous!

    Am doing well with staying away from red bull.  I’m also trying to stay away from all forms of caffeine. I feel like this exercise is making me think about myself in different ways. I am dormant in everything I do. Am thinking about the substitute to most of my daily activities. I wish I could come up with one for my job too!

question my addiction

      Is red bull really my addiction? I mean, apart from worrying this morning after my class, that I can’t make it through the day without one; I didn’t think about it. I spoke to my friends at work about giving up red bull for two weeks. No one thinks red bull is hard to give up. I actually don't do  much of the adductive stuff. I don’t drink or smoke; I’m not a sugar freak; I seldom eat at fast foods and I don’t drink soda. I’m kind of questioning my addiction too. Maybe my head ahead from last night was not because I didn’t have red bull. I had a couple of interesting suggestions.

     My friend Cindy thinks I should give up sex. (Lord how can anyone explain that to the world?) It’s funny how all my friend think it would be interesting write about. hmmm... hell no! I got a dare from Oliver though. He asked me to try to stay away from social media for a full week. I would give up social media but its my only form of communication with my friends in Gambia. I’m thinking I’ll give up rice too. It’s a cultural staple food in my country. Most of the meals I make are serve with rice. But what would I eat?

Need caffeine!

     Saturday is one of the most stressful days for me. I hate waking up early; 6:00am for my psych class_ only God knows why I signed up for an early morning class. It's crazy how the red line always has some type of delay on weekends. I have to leave the house two hours for a 9am class. How I hate to wait on buses; the weather today is fairly okay  but it's usually... I freeze my lungs to death waiting on the Z8, then the S2 or S4 and finally H2 buses. 

     Am never going to take a 3hours long class ever again! Since I can't drink red bull, I just yawn my jaws off in class today. I have no clue about what the lesson was. I seriouly feel like people know am staying away from red bull so they decide to tempt me. The young lady that choose to sit right in front of me in class; and she had the exact size can I would get- 16 oz. I have to get coffee before work. I need some type of caffeine to get through the day. Am about to start an 8 hours shift. Lord help me!

No more energy drinks!

     I can't remember the last time I went through a work day without a can of red bull. Am on my way home from work and and am trying to put up my first blog about giving up something I think I can't do without. Right now I have a terrible headache and am sure it's because I've not had a bull today. I've been dragging ma feet all day today. I have no idea how I got myself so addicted to the energy drink; am sure, however, that am more determine to stay away from it. I feel so tired.