Irony

      The heat in class... I can hear the vent going on. Seriously someone should turn it off. Am burning out. I'm trying to pay attention to the teacher but I cant make out what his trying to say. I don't want to walk out of class because I feel as if I've done that a lot for this ( only maybe once or twice). I'm super thirsty; however, I don't want to walk to the vending machine. There is a very high chance that I might slot my money in the red bull vending machine instead of the water machine. Its ironic how I'm born and raise in African, and I cant stand the hot weather. Its true we never have winter in Gambia; however, it does not get crazy humid. Forget the booty shorts and the tinny dresses; I ,honesty, would choose the 30 degrees weather over the 90.

sick, sad and moody

     I’ve been feeling sick this weekend. All I did, especially today, was just sleep. I feel like doing anything. I have tons of homework to complete for tomorrow morning. I my head is hurting so bad; am sure a can of red bull will make me feel better. Am so hungry but I can’t get myself off the bed to get food. I don’t understand my body right now. I feel sad and I cant even say why. I'm just going to go back to sleep. L

last minute

Well today I didn’t think about red bull at all..! Well… at least not until Felecia mention it; “ waa’ happened to ya red bull” she said in her Guinean creole; “every time I see ya’ mann, I see a red bull in ya hand” she added.  I believe am addicted to red bull; however, I know she just said that to start up a conversation. Am guessing she has seen me at work about two or three times. She looks like the type of person who always has a lot to say about other people. Anyway, am hungry now; work was so exhausting; I feet hurt; so am thinking about rice.  Oh lord I have a quiz tomorrow morning! Completely forgot! Hmm, even if I remembered, my lazy ass won’t pick up the book to read. It’s so hard to work on that part of me; I do everything last minute. The bus driver seriously needs to drive a little faster. All I want right now is to get home, eat and sleep.

Energizer

     I think I’ve figured out why I love red bull. I’ve been thinking about it a lot today because I had another long exhausting day. I feel it’s partly because am lazy. It serves as an energizer for me to do things I really don’t want to do. Or should I say, I feel lazy to do. I honestly can’t wait for Thursday next week; well, not because of the red bull though. I need my coffee and rice. I’ve not being making any home cooked meals; that is helping me not think about it. I feel like I gain a lot of pounds this past week. How ironic! Am having way lesser carbs in my meals; no red bull and, of course, the extra creamy coffee. I need to go to sleepy!

2 for 5

How I love the two for five sale! Too bad I could not get it. Lemonade didn't help with the cravings...       But I did make it through the day almost alright; Being feeling cranky all through. Just got home from work. I can't think straight; struggling to complete my homework for tomorrow morning's class!  I can't emphasize on how "tired" I feel.

Need or Want

     Am tired! I was up late last night; I have a speech due in a few minutes; I honestly could use red bull or coffee (not decaffeinated coffee). I don’t know how I can do this. It’s going to be hard to stand in front of the class. Am not even prepared; I don’t know what am going to say. What if I stutter what I have going to say? I need something to calm my nerves. Water is not helping. There is a red bull vending machine down the hall. I picture myself walking to it; I can feel my fingers digging into my purse for coins to slot into the machine. I can hear the “tish…” sound of the can as I opened it. The relaxing cool feel as it goes down my throat. Right now I'll say I need, not want, a bull! I can honestly use one; but I should learn to control my desire’s right?

The Substitute

   I completely forgot about saying I’m giving up rice. I was having some for lunch when I realized I was not supposed to have any. I didn’t continue eating it though! I don’t believe there is something I can’t live without, but am used to eating rice. It don’t actually disturb me if I didn’t have it but_ well… I found a substitute though; couscous!

    Am doing well with staying away from red bull.  I’m also trying to stay away from all forms of caffeine. I feel like this exercise is making me think about myself in different ways. I am dormant in everything I do. Am thinking about the substitute to most of my daily activities. I wish I could come up with one for my job too!